Tiny Win Update

I will take any win that I can get with this pregnancy.  It has been rough that is for sure, it will though get better, I do have the confidence.   My OB doctor is good i  need to be more open and understanding that I cannot have the world exactly how i want it all the time at the snap of my fingers.  Why – I do not understand I cannot have it LMAO.

Anyhow OB baby doctor tells me today that I am not doing good and I should be at better.  I am at 163, I have not lost of gained – I think I am not sure i cant really see my records for each individual weight check in.

I have good hydration she said, that is good ! Nothing in my urine that i would be bad for me or Mason.

She did tell me that if i go back to triage for  fluids more than twice in a months time, she is requesting a home health nurse for me and a Zofran drip, I am so DAMN scared so I don’t care how much  i puke up i continue to drink so i am hydrated.  If i feel bad I will not call and tell them.  I will just buck up and shut up.

Mason is doing great.  She didn’t seem worried about him at all that always make me feel great.

She did talk to me about stress and my life and that she feels that i need to be home and is glad that my therapist is getting me disability.  I did not know at my appointment this am that my therapist is going to be gone for a couple of weeks, she has a family emergency in another state.  i hope all is well for her, she is helping me see things i never saw before  and actually truly understand a bit more how I am having  the feelings I have now.  I do not like it but at least now i am aware.  So i can work on it and fix it all slowly or cope with it well.  I do see my psychiatrist this week or psychologist, whichever prescribes meds or she is a nurse practitioner. I do not know maybe she can help me file some paperwork, I hope.  anyhow my doctor today Dr. Craig said she was not putting a request through for disability if my therapist is. so i guess one way it will get done.

Anyhow i do not have to be back till October 11 !  That is more than one week , I graduated from weekly visits to bi weekly.  I am only 17 weeks 5 days, s this will get old quick , doing this all the time till 40 weeks.


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Ok I am very happy and content with being pregnant.  It is awesome , I know that I am special that there is many women out there that would give anything to be in my shoes.

I get it – HG hypermesis OMG is no fun 😦  I think I am just dieing.  My anxiety is a million times worse.  I cannot concentrate or be treated for it since I am pregnant.  My anxiety depression is worsening cause I  cannot control anything.  Then to top it off, I have a very high paced high demanding job !

I do work for an awesome company, so I think that it is short-term disability, that I am applying for or actually did today with my doctor.  She is awesome like that.   She helped me out with so much, not just work related, but she remembers things I told her from so long ago.  I am not used to people listening to me.  It makes me feel so special.

I go for my check up weekly this Friday, I have been weighing my self everyday at 9 AM, noonish, and 7-8 PM.  I have not lost a pound !  I also have not gained a pound, I still have 4 days to get some weight on also.



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Nails – Everyone likes it some what

I use to try to kid myself and always say you don’t like fake nails or have to have your nails painted.  Well I really don’t like the fake nails, I DO LOVE to have my nails painted.  I am not total girly girl my toes and finger have to match or anything. In fact I like when they are the same shades or like black and orange, black and red, blue and yellow, blue and red, you know like that, if I have that much time to put into painting them.

anyhow I was gifted a few months back a nail day.  It was so nice and I received Gel Nail polish.  I fell in love, but not when I seen the price.  OUCH

I started googling and looking for coupons.  I have a Sally’s membership, so I waited till I had enough in coupons and bought a Nail LED light.  Super Cheap after rewards and 75% coupon I paid $19 I think for it.  I received a nice little kit with it. Base polish, 2 colors, top coat.  The Soak off Gel and the dehydrate and wipe off solution.  I started shopping on EBAY – gosh it takes a month to receive the polish but they are a $1.00 to $3.00 a bottle and  a lot of sellers if you buy 3 or 4 then you get 1 free.  Shopping is usually almost always free.

Great deal right ?   These are some of the polishes I order and THIS is where i order some from.



For my soak off I now use a Gel Remover by OPI of course was bought on EBAY as well.  BUY HERE.


I bought the pink finger tip caps for the soak off solution – you fill clear portion with solution soak then peel off.  Nice easy removal.  I bought these on EBAY as well but i am not sure who through and not in my records any longer.


I am a subscription addict there is no question to that. I love to sample all types of items to see which i prefer the best or which works best for me. I love subscription boxes. Before I started to subscribe, I really had no knowledge of makeup past apply base foundation, powder, eyeliner, eyeshadow (on night outs) mascara and bam you are ready to go.

I have learned what is good for my skin type my age, what body is going through. I have learned tons and tons about mask – I actually love them they are the best.

This is my first month of lip monthly and let me tell you, IMPRESSED so far.

I received 3 wonderful lip full size. One face mask – really excited. It is coconut milk and tomatoes. Sounds interesting cannot wait to try and yes I will review.

This month the 2 full size lip items I received was lip gloss KISS & SMINK THE MULTIPLE and BANG BEAUTY lip gloss and a SORME liner.

Kiss &Mink


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By the hair of my chinny chin chin

“Man on Fire”  – wow what a movie .   I have loved it been in the top 5 forever.  Watching it today – pregnant hormonal, OMG I am bawling mess.  What the hell, I am over the hormones and emotions.   I saw “Fried Green Tomatoes” for the first time ever a few weeks back – yes I said weekS) and I am still bawling over the beautiful story and friendship and love.

OK so squirrel. You will notice soon the my ADD or ADHD or whatever the hell it is, kicks in quickly and often.  Specially now that I am not allowed to take ANY meds to help with it.  If you are just tuning in I am 4.5 months pregnant.  Crazy right ?  Yeah I am crazy, they wont diagnose me that way, but I am.  Haha.    Anyhow, today was my therapist appointment, she is a doctor but not a MD. Anyhow, she is awesome I am sorry that it took all my life to get to her.  She understands me completely. she makes me feel normal than I normally do.  Yes that is possible.  Any hoo, today she started me the process of being placed on STD (short-term disability).  Unless they can get my FMLA in order.  That was a huge relief for me and my life, right now, I am just on the edge of it all.  Letting go of everything.  My body is just wore out and I do not think that I maybe shouldn’t have had another so quick.  Oh well.  Lesson learned cannot change it now and my fiancée is so happy.  In love with the idea of a son coming in March 2018.

It will be nice, I can do some classes and take me time before the baby arrives.  I have been cleaning like crazy, oh geesh, that was a whole another post.  You would think that I was going to go into labor soon, haha, I am wore out energy depleted but somehow I find the gumption to clean and clean but I only do it once every 2 weeks. my fiancée does the majority I am so lucky.  he takes care of the baby the dogs the kids and the house as I sit around about not being able to eat stop puking and being miserable.